am i under controling by myself...??

today had an outing with vicki..i've went for an interview at ioi...but haven't get to comfirm yet..
tears drop today but not as much as last two days..
i've control myself from dropping tears and contact u..
i really dunno wat i've done wrong and u just leave me alone like this.. *DO U NOE HOW PAIN AM I?*
today feel much more better..last two days really felt hard to breaathe...
at last..u didn't find me for the whole day.. ...